Been think too much about you when I should have been thinking of me
You left my heart still beating on the seat of your car
Dropping me off without ever saying goodbye
Alone I sit on the floor with what ever I need
This damning darkness surrounds my periphery
The spotlights on me but I just want to hide
Nothing to give that’s not already been taken
Nowhere to go that I’ll feel welcome
Another day squandered on this thing they call love
Another day wasted on another missed call
You never write or say a few words
Your presence is missing since the day that we met
Feeling different and strange to your stares everyday
Doesn’t help me get through this time of my life
Throw myself off the building cut myself in the night
Bullet through the brain now wouldn't that be a sight
This feeling I’m left with just won’t go away
But why must I spend every second in pain
I’m not a joke I’m a person too
So what do they say when my backs fully turned
A world of haters who can’t back it up
These tear in my eyes are as real as me
This portrait of beauty isn't only skin deep
To say that I scare you isn't enough so it seems
That your answer is violence only sickens me
You bring out your signs with god on the front
Which hurts just as much as a stake in the back
So this pain I will bear like a scar on my face
Forever confronting this horrible place
I am a girl who was born a boy
And what would I give to have been born a Miss
But praying wont fix this problem I have
So I put on my clothes no matter the day
And enter the world in my own special way
To your glances and glares and sometimes word spoke
I’ll keep my chin up
I know I’m not a joke
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